managing expectations part two

I wasn’t expecting the process of mourning to increase in intensity. I thought it’d be some zen like nirvana, but instead I’m wracked by uncontrollable bursts of tears, I feel like a bear with a sore head.

I am in isolation because I don’t fit the outside world, I’m too slow, my breath holds me up till the situation has moved on without me.

In my own time and space all are welcome and yet few want to be there.

I’m looking through so many veils that I am neither seen beyond my difficulties or can see beyond my difficulties.

the advice comes pouring in, to obfuscate the real.

Winter is still here.

I haven’t been out for two weeks.

ouch

Published by julia

Hi. My name is Julia, I live with a lung disability, causing all kinds of physical hurdles, and to be honest I am just trying to reach the end of each day with a sense of personal meaning and accomplishment. This blog is part of that goal, a human satellite spitting out data. I really look forward to hearing something back!

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