julia

abuse full stop

This post is about child grooming ( child sex abuse) and as such may not be suitable for everyone. It isn’t graphic or violent, but still… hence my notice. Welcome to the world my child, Don’t be afraid of the wicked we have confined them into a prison of scorn and contempt, from where’ll they’llContinue reading “abuse full stop”

Coronaaaaa arrrrgggghhh arrhh umm sigh

Nothing is without its influence ( Nothing was….) It’s not so much the virus ( unflinching public compliance ) submit ( no question….) this blog is dead (for now). Till now Voiceless or Speechless ( clever, but meaningless) I tried , really I did. I am writing a blog post proper now, but I didn’tContinue reading “Coronaaaaa arrrrgggghhh arrhh umm sigh”

Inception

I am beginning to realise that my memories are not wholly my own as I share them on this blog, extruded into the biosphere I am reminded of details I had forgotten or mislaid, or filed under NOT currently important, sometimes “no it wasn’t like that, it was like this”. This has been a welcomeContinue reading “Inception”

self-consciousness

it used to be that I was slightly self conscious about people always seeing me on the sofa asleep, or just doing stuff. I live in a bungalow and the living room feels like a fish bowl, as nightfall came I was always in a rush to close the curtains as it got darker andContinue reading “self-consciousness”

Open

I was open then. Literally living on a whim. All my clothes were homemade. Scotland. Living on a peace camp. In a caravan on the side of the road. Physically I would go anywhere. More or less with anyone. To do anything. I hitch hiked up and down the UK. Drove to Europe. Flew toContinue reading “Open”

Context

is it just me or is The Big C no longer cancer, which I always found incredibly annoying anyway: the illness hierarchy! the adverts; mothers on the warpath in pink t-shirts showing the kids how you beat up your opponents, surely not the playground motto I hope, for the innocent parent who even suggested thatContinue reading “Context”

12 Years a Chronic

Twelve new projects I did to stop chronic illness overwhelm, ennui, deterioration. #1 Foundation in Art and Design, Camberwell College of Art, full of young people and me super ill, really didn’t cope well. # 2 Complementary Medicine Practitioner (Swedish massage) In deepest Kent, Snodland…..they all thought I was right up my own arse, properContinue reading “12 Years a Chronic”

Stay In

and so it begins, my personal experience of life now writ large. Stay in, be aware of catching any germs. Instead of being a voluntary outcast, the lonely other, I am the experienced traveller in these troubling times, an expert in overcoming whatever comes @ home. Its been an accelerated learning curve for most, IContinue reading “Stay In”

# No.1 Reflections again

So where do we go from here? After a couple of months of blogging (as predicted) I’ve reached the end of my long moan about the hard times, difficulties and challenges, and apart from banging on about my domestic trouble and strife I’m going to have to find the reason I’m doing this again. AtContinue reading “# No.1 Reflections again”

saviours

Growing up in a Christian country and family I am pretty cynical about the notion of saviours, but I’ve been realising lately that all the heroic big myths and motifs of life are possibly only the quotidian mortal efforts of humans writ large for effect. Most people I know can retell an event, or act,Continue reading “saviours”